Nine months into my transition, the typical gestation for a newborn baby, am I being born, again, as a human female?

I’m sitting here in a pretty apartment in Oakland. I just chatted with my pretty trans friend, Demi. …

Chef and I had been messaging for a month. In his picture, he stands in the kitchen in his chef’s coat and Sacramento Kings hat. He looks like he’s trying to be serious, but there’s something just so adorable in his face, something that makes it hard to take him…

I took my first blood test here in San Francisco. For a girl who doesn’t have a car, the location could not be more convenient — there is a LabCorp literally on my block. I don’t even have to cross the street.

Can we talk about LabCorp, though? I needed…

Folsom

A lot of what I’ve posted so far is stuff that Hollywood would say was “in the can” — i.e., ready to publish but not necessarily brand new. It’s fun to have that stuff — it gives me a chance to write and then rewrite, which is almost always…

Thursday night. It’s the night before I move to San Francisco, and I don’t feel feminine at all. I’ve even started estradiol — synthetic estrogen. You’d think that would help, wouldn’t you? I’m staring at the ceiling at midnight and asking why is this happening? Why am I trans?

I took my second blood test after a month on spironolactone, just before I was going to start estradiol.

Nurses read between the lines. When you hand them a lab request for estradiol and testosterone levels, they know what’s up. We chatted about regional health care systems. She offered some…

I buy flowers. I buy a lot of flowers. I buy them at the farmers market. I buy them at the corner store. I have three vases in my bedroom — one on either side of my bed and one above my desk. I can always see, can always smell…

Samanta

I live with three young gay men in a lovely apartment in a fantastic neighborhood. It’s not perfect, but it’s not bad. The place could be cleaner. But you can do worse — a lot worse.

The flat is the top story of an Edwardian house in Duboce Triangle…

You can hide your gender identity. You can repress it for a lifetime if you want. Or you can acknowledge who you are. You can change your blood.

I am changing. My blood is proof.

Let’s talk about my pre-HRT blood… which was super disappointing.

I gave a blood sample…

Amie Dorsey

Trans woman in San Francisco. Writer for years. Never been honest. Let's change that.

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